Planning my 40th Birthday
Countdown to June 26th, 2010 and the big 4 0 I know this many seem strange, but I am struggling with turning 40...I know, I know, perhaps it is not so strange. My whole life I have heard "older" people, who now don't seem so much older to my almost 40 year old mind, say that they never felt any older on the inside, that on the inside, you always feel 19. I am now truly starting to understand that. I don't feel 40 inside. This past few years I am definitely changing. I am getting stronger and more sure of myself. I have my own mind and am learning to speak it, I have value and intelligence and I can voice it now. I am definitely getting stronger. And, yet, I have far to go, I still feel like a little girl on the inside, longing for the approval of my parents, which will never come, longing for unconditional love and to feel cherished. I guess those feelings never fully go away. So, Victor and Amber are planning a party for me, but they have let me contribute greatly to...